Tuesday, December 16, 2014

TTC.


TTC...a list of letters that mean something...normally you would not know what they are unless you are TTC. We are TTC. Trying. To. Conceive. Lucky us. It has been 7 months now and no baby yet. My doctor told me wait until a year to come in and do testing. The biggest annoyance in this is everyone that wants to give me advice. i.e. Stay patient, relax, don't stress out over it, etc. How am I supposed to stay patient, relax and not stress out when we are trying to make a child together and it is not happening. It can be so frustrating when you are trying so hard and you have no outcome. Now..don't get me wrong..the sex is great but the struggle is real. I love my husband and could not imagine going through this with anyone else. 

At this point, I am going to just let it go. I know I am putting my self and my body under pressure. I am hoping that if I do RELAX like people say and not worry about it so much that it will help. Up until now I was tracking my ovulation with a ovulation kit, I was using an app to track it as well as my period. I was/am OCD about it and bother Chris so much when it says I am ovulating that it takes the fun of out the process. I have deleted the app from my phone and will no longer be buying the ovulating kits. 

I want to look at it as if God allows me to have a child, that it will happen. I am not super religious but in this instance I have to be. I have to put my faith in God and just go with the flow. I can't worry anymore or get upset every time I see a new pregnancy announcement (which is almost 2 a day at this point). I am happy for everyone that is and can conceive children and I understand that some may go through longer periods of TTC than I am right now. It is hard though when you want something so bad and there is nothing you can do about it until mother nature gets her shit together.


2 comments:

  1. I'm in the exact same boat as you - 7 months TTC. I can relate to so much of the things that you wrote. Thank you for sharing your journey! Sometimes it's just nice to know that you aren't alone in this very frustrating journey.

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  2. Lady this will happen for you! I just know it! Hang in there and leave it in Gods hands and I am sure things will turn out right.

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