Yesterday was a hard day for me. Every where I turned I saw pregnancy announcements, whether it was someone I knew or a celebrity. At first I was like oh look at that but as the day went on, it was was like it was national tell everyone we are pregnant day.
It is not that I am not happy for these people, but for me it is hard. I have been trying for 6 months and I am not pregnant yet. I know..that is not that long but when you really want something like this, every month that passes makes it harder. Every time my period pops up I break down crying. I know I need more patience and to stop worrying, but that is easier said than done. Every part of me is saying have a baby but my body is not wanting to do that yet.
I have people ask me all the time when we are going to have a kid and I want to yell at them and tell them its not up to me apparently. I know it is not their fault but after awhile I don't want to be asked anymore. When I get pregnant, you will know. I think this is one of the most frustrating things I have ever gone through. Normally when I want something, I go get it. This is not that easy. Another things that is frustrating is when people tell me tricks and tips. I have tried them all..believe me.
I know I need more patience and that it will happen, when it happens. It is hard to have the patience and just wait month after month. I need to relax and stop stressing but honestly..that is very hard to do. I know when my body is ready it will happen but I am getting so tired of waiting. I try to be happy for everyone else that is announcing their pregnancy but honestly, it is hard to see when I am over here saying "Hey ovaries..wanna work sometime soon"
So fingers crossed I chill out and this happens soon.
Also if you are pregnancy please do not take this as I am mad at you. It is just hard when you see 5+ announcements one day and you have not gotten pregnant yet.