Wednesday, December 3, 2014

Frustration.

Yesterday was a hard day for me. Every where I turned I saw pregnancy announcements, whether it was someone I knew or a celebrity. At first I was like oh look at that but as the day went on, it was was like it was national tell everyone we are pregnant day. 


It is not that I am not happy for these people, but for me it is hard. I have been trying for 6 months and I am not pregnant yet. I know..that is not that long but when you really want something like this, every month that passes makes it harder. Every time my period pops up I break down crying. I know I need more patience and to stop worrying, but that is easier said than done. Every part of me is saying have a baby but my body is not wanting to do that yet.

 I have people ask me all the time when we are going to have a kid and I want to yell at them and tell them its not up to me apparently. I know it is not their fault but after awhile I don't want to be asked anymore. When I get pregnant, you will know. I think this is one of the most frustrating things I have ever gone through. Normally when I want something, I go get it. This is not that easy. Another things that is frustrating is when people tell me tricks and tips. I have tried them all..believe me. 


I know I need more patience and that it will happen, when it happens. It is hard to have the patience and just wait month after month. I need to relax and stop stressing but honestly..that is very hard to do. I know when my body is ready it will happen but I am getting so tired of waiting. I try to be happy for everyone else that is announcing their pregnancy but honestly, it is hard to see when I am over here saying "Hey ovaries..wanna work sometime soon" 

So fingers crossed I chill out and this happens soon. 

Also if you are pregnancy please do not take this as I am mad at you. It is just hard when you see 5+ announcements one day and you have not gotten pregnant yet. 

5 comments:

  1. Ohhhh I am so sorry to hear your struggle! I can imagine that being such a difficult feeling. You're on the right track of thinking to focus on patience. I am a firm believer that babies come at the exact perfect moment, whether planned or unplanned. Everything about parenting is stressful and causes anxiety, so it's no surprise that conceiving would do the same! Maybe you could set a goal to accomplish within the next year-ish and focus on it instead of specifically conceiving? Sometimes it is easiest to distract ourselves.I hope you can find some peace and patience in spite of the stress you're going through.

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  2. i completely understand - it seems like 75% of the bloggers i follow are pregnant, as well as all these celebrities lately. and it is SO hard seeing people have kids that maybe shouldn't since they neglect/abuse/ignore/whatever the ones they have.

    my husband and i have been trying for over twelve years, including all fertility treatments with only IVF left to try. we haven't had the funds over the past several years for that type of procedure so we feel we have reached the end. i have had endometriosis for 24 years and have had seven surgeries so far.

    i cannot explain in words the heartbreak every single month when mother nature rolls around.....

    (i had to buy a baby card last month for my husband to give someone he works with and i had to sit in the car crying before i could leave the store.)

    my heart and soul is with you and i will have you in my thoughts. one tip: relax and take care of yourself!!!!

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  3. You literally took the words right out of my mouth!!! I'm keeping you in my thoughts and prayers and hoping that you get those two glorious lines soon!

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  4. There have been a ton of announcements lately! But, remember everyone has their own struggle. Maybe those people tried for years, or maybe they are scared out of their minds because it wasn't planned. I remember I was so scared to tell my sister I was pregnant because she struggled with infertility for years! Six months isn't too long, I am sure your time will come soon...and then you get to do the cute announcement!

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  5. There's definitely baby fever going around. But, some of them may have been trying for quite a while too. It will happen in its own time. Until then, I wish you lots of luck!

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