Yesterday while driving to work my high school class song came on. Normally when it came on it was just whatever and I would not pay much attention to it except I realized yesterday that next year will be 10 years since I have graduated high school.
I have no idea where the last 9 years have went. I feel like it was just yesterday I walked across that stage with all of my other class mates to get my diploma. I thought I knew everything, had life figured out only to be slapped down many notches and have my ass handed to me many times. I have changed so much over the years, grown from the child I was and my friends are not the same. I do not even talk to the my high school friends anymore as some people do. We have grown apart and I am okay with it. I have many new friends as I am sure most people do.
In high school I was not in a group or clique, I was in band, I was not part of one particular thing but many things. I had multiple friends and I did not start drama. I moved to WV my freshman year and had to face high school as new student in a new fresh new school with a ton of new people. It was hard and fun all at the same time. I got to meet new people and learn so much more. I went from a tiny little town to a much large town. Martinsburg was actually good for me and I am glad my parents moved there and I got to go to school in that town. I have a lot of great memories from there and they are all from high school. I am actually looking forward to my high school reunion and yes I will be going. I did get voted most school spirited!
Looking back I would have never guessed I would be married in my twenties, working where I do, living back here in VA, going through what I have the past year and the loss I have. I have grown so much more than I believe I would have guess I would at 18 years old. If I could tell my 18 year old 1 thing it would be cherish every moment! Life has thrown me some crazy curve balls.
I see my fellow class mates online and things they post still and at a point..I feel for them. Some of them are still trying to figure things out and I see them as stuck in a high school mentality and we are all about to be in our 30's. At some point, you have to grow up, put on your big kid britches and face life.
My class song was Tim McGraw "Live Like You Were Dying" which now just makes me smile because that is what I am doing after what I have been through since Dax died.