I remember the call...I remember every detail about it. I was told my nephew was shot. I had hope that he was okay. Then I got another call. He was dead...from a gunshot wound. Do you know what it feels like to have your heart ripped from your chest? To be told one of the people in your life the means the most to you is gone. That hole is still there and will never be filled again. I do not have kids. I now do not want kids. My nephew was like my son. He was an amazing kid.
He was a ball of energy. Always trying to see what he could get into. Starting something with his little sister. Farting on someone. Pushing the limit with you. He loved skrillex and was trying to make music on the computer. He was in band in middle school and played the drums. Video games was his passion. HE LOVED VIDEO GAMES. This kid was not perfect but he was to me!
He was the ring bearer in my wedding. We carved pumpkins together. Put up the Christmas tree. I told him bad words that I shouldn't have and would give anything to hear them right now. I would give anything to cook this kid a steak. He loved steak and asked for it every time he came over to my house. I have so many fond memories with him that I will have to cherish as I can not make any new ones. All I have is almost 13 years of his life.
He will never get to get married, date a girl, or experience his life. He is gone. He was ripped from this world by a gun. By so much stupidity.
Love your family..hug them. Do not let the little things bug you. You never know how long you have left with them. I wish I could go back and hug him one more time. I just want to hold him and hug him and tell him I love him. I can't. He was taken from me and all I have now are memories and pictures.
Now on Friday I have to go say good bye to him. I will never see him again, hear his laugh or see his precious face! He was an angel and did not deserve what happened to him. I will never get to spend time with him or hug him. I would give anything to have him back and hug him one more time and tell him I love him!
Dax Ian Dixon
12-18-2000 to 10-26-2013